"Comfort Kit" Delivery

Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaay!!! Guess what Loves!!! It was "Comfort Kit" Delivery Time today!!!

I first just have to start off by saying it was such a blessing to be able to donate the "Comfort Kits!" I was so happy to finally get a response back from the Oncology clinic and to find out that we were able to drop off the kits today! I also want to say that if any of the patients that have received a kit are reading this right now, know that you are loved and that everyone who contributed to make your kit and I are hoping you enjoy it and that it brought a smile to your face!!

(Due to the privacy and confidentiality of the patients we did not take any pics of them receiving their "Comfort Kits")

(Also a special Thank you to this lovely lady above for allowing us to donate the comfort kits to the center! We were very thrilled when she told us the patients would be excited to see and receive these!)

It's something that I have worked so hard over these last couple of years to get to do, it was also my biggest motivation that helped get through my battle with Cancer! Over these last few post I've been non stop talking about how much stuff has been going on and how I wanted so much to do these kits, so now im just so happy and glad its finally here!! Its crazy to think this time last year I was in a Stem Cell treatment and this year I am doing what I love and living out my dream! As I said in other posts the kit included things such as a specialized letter,hand sanitizer, tissues, a blanket, a tooth brush kit and etc. I want to personally thank you loves for all the support you have not only given them by donating and coming out to events to help me raise money for the kits, but for also giving me such amazing love and support! Thank you for taking time out to believe in me and what Chromatic L'Amour is doing and thank you for being apart of it all with me! It's because of all your purchases over at our Chromatic L'Amour's booth this past event we did that we were able to make the kits! For every item you loves purchase from Chromatic L'Amour we take out a portion that goes straight into making "Comfort Kits" and gladly I say for all those who doubted Chromatic L'Amour here it is. Actions speak louder than words and we worked extremely hard to promote and get these kits together! So again thank you from the bottom of my heart it means the world to me and thank you for Making a difference! Thank you for helping me spread Cancer Awareness!! Anyone who purchases Chromatic L'Amour Clothing or items are apart of the Chromatic L'Amour Crew and Family!! We all stand united as one to show nothing but love and support to those who have battled, are battling, or for those that will have to battle!!! Lets make a difference in style!!!
 

I also want to give a HUGE thanks to my Parents and sisters for helping me package and deliver the "Comfort Kits!" Thank you for always supporting me and loving me! Thank you for never discouraging me on my dreams I Love you all so much!!

First Time for everythting "Comfort Kit"

Happy Saturday Loves!! It's a very special day because I have some exciting news for you!! As I said before in these last recent posts, we are waiting to hear back from the Oncology center that we will be donating more comfort kits to. We are still in the process of waiting for a response on when there will be a good day to be able to go deliver those, BUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUT!!!!!!!!!

For the first time ever we had the honor of delivering a special "Comfort Kit" To someone very special named Petra!! Words cant describe how blessed and Honored it was to give this kind, sweet, funny, joyful, and most of all beautiful women a "Comfort Kit". Was so exciting to see her smile when handed to her! Nothing on this earth could have topped that moment in time! We had packed some goodies for her along with a blanket, tooth brush kit, hand sanitizer, Tissues,Animal Crackers (which were her fav!) and more! We based all items on Pink and Purple and were so excited that she told us they were her favorite colors especially pink!!

She was very excited and happy to receive it I couldn't help but feel so happy inside!! I watched her smile as right away when she got it opened it up and looked through all the stuff she got. She took out each item and said what exactly she liked about it!! That was super awesome!!! I wont lie I was scared that maybe it wasn't something she would have liked, I based it off of things that I loved and enjoyed or needed when I was in treatment or feeling ill. Some of those snacks and goodies were my fav and im so glad they were hers as well!! She told me how much she liked the pink and that she loves to eat the Animal crackers especially with milk! I asked if we could take her pic and she gladly said yes posing with her already opened kit!!! She is soooooooo sweet and It is was so nice talking to her!! I ask that you all keep Petra in your prayers, and that she will continue to have a smile on her face and that she will get better. Petra has been battling Cancer for years now and more than ever needs our prayers!! Thank you Loves for the people that contributed to helping donate and helping us give her a Comfort Kit! You loves are also apart of putting a smile on her face!!

I Surrender

 Hey Loves! Hope y'all are having a good Monday to start off the week!

                                                    So for the past couple of days now there's a few thangs that have been happening.

I will first start off with an Update with the "Comfort Kits!" As I mentioned in the last post I've been trying extremely hard to get all the items for the "Comfort Kits" to make them as perfect as possible!! And I'm super excited that they are all set and ready to go which I could not be more happier about! Been working so hard especially since this was our very first set of "Comfort Kits" that Chromatic L'Amour and I have ever done! We were very excited to get the go ahead to give the kits to patients and have been trying to get a day that we can deliver them. Unfortunately We still are waiting to hear a reply on when a good day to deliver them are and we are hoping it is very soon!! I've been pushing really hard to get through and I was hoping and aiming for this week!! But at this point I know I've been doing every thing I can and its just something we will have to be patient on. SO PLEASE Loves if you can please keep this in your prayers that we will very soon hear a reply and be able to deliver the kits to patients sooner than later it be greatly appreciated!!

 

As though I know there's nothing I can really do at this point other than be patient, I'd be lying if I said I wasn't disappointed. I know im not alone in this or at least im hoping im not alone when it comes to feeling bummed out when things don't always go as planned. Of course I know better than to mope around about it but I admit this time I cant help but feel sad bout this. Waiting is the hardest part because as you know not knowing what is going to happen tends to get me nervous. Im always scared that something will go wrong and always prepare for the worst but in this case im hoping its just that the staff is really busy, (which I know they always are) and are hoping that they will get back to me soon. But again as you loves know me to well ya know im a Worrier to the MAX!! But I know better than to question my path so I surrender all my fears and worries. I know God always leads me down the right path that I'm meant to walk and its not what I want its what his will is. Let your will be done not mine.

I will follow no matter what Lord, you have always been my shelter through the storms in my life and have always been there to hold my hand or to carry me through my trials. There is no better time and place than where and when your plan for me unfolds. So I surrender.


                                 And in attempt to keep motivated and push through . . . .
                          
                                                                 ZOO TRIP!!!!!!!!

By the way did I mention how in love I am with the Flamingo pic up above!! It reminds me of Alice and wonderland!!!!

I was told by my Momma that I went to the Zoo when I was younger but I couldn't remember nada. So you can only imagine how excited I was but maybe not even, cause I was soooo stoked!!!! Im an animal lover and just to see all the beautiful animals or at least some of the animals that God has created was such a blessing!! Every scale on an alligator's back down to each and every feather on a bird I was just so memorized and taken back!!

Holy moly!!! Words cant describe how thankful and blessed I feel right now!! Tears of joy is what I felt and its just sooo precious to me that Im here getting the chance to do the things I've always wanted!!!

And above all!!!!!!!!! I got to see my fav animal Giraffes!!!! Ahhhhhh!!! Im still so excited I cant get over how close I was to them!! Im soooo in love with Giraffes it was what I will remember seeing them in person for the first time!!! Nothing could top this!!!

Im Just so blessed and thankful for all the things that have been happing in my life it just reminds me how it was worth all the fighting even if there sometime is rough times, its all just part of life!!

Highs and Lows

Hey Loves!!Hope you are all having a lovely evening!!

And incase some of you loves are new readers WELCOME!!! Feel free to scroll on down and catch up on other recent post! Or feel free to read my older post about my journey with battling cancer, which you can find at the right hand side of this page under my About me profile! Or if not that's cool too lol over all I just hope you enjoy visiting on here. So incase y'all were wondering and noticed I've been sort of (MIA) it's true. I have been missing in action and not posting as much BUT!!! Doesn't mean I forgot bout you beautiful loves NOPE!!! (How could I possibly ever!!) I've just been gathering every bit of pics and juicy stories so that I could have a non stop marathon of posts to share with you that are coming your way!!! YaaaaaaaaY!! Yes ya heard me its round 2 of my blogging Madness!! I thought it be fun to switch it up a bit and throw some kick pow to this here blog!!! Pics Stories updates and OMG!! Do I Have NEW Youtube vids coming your way????? I think I do!!!! Although I admit Its taken for ever and a day and caused me to not be on for a little, I do apologize but gladly and proudly I say it was for good reasons though!! I've been in the works of going high, low, close and oooooh so faaaaaaaaaaaaar. To search for nothing but the best items to put in all of the "Comfort Kits!!!" But first things first! Let me just say it hasn't been all fun and games these last few weeks. Say hello to my little pic of me at the ER yeeeees! This so happened and it was not fun.

                         
So as you can see I was in the ER and thank God im ok, non the less it was extremely scary and stressful, and im still in a little pain. (Oh and if your wondering what my older sis is looking at in the pic up above, it was a stain on the wall whoooo knows what that was, but she still sat next to it just so she could come support me at the ER awwww!! Isn't that cute thanks sis! Your the bestest!!) I've been clear for 9 months now without a trace of Hodgkin's Lymphoma Cancer which I've had in the past!! And although I'm soooo blessed beyond my wildest dreams and sooo thankful to God for another chance at life, unfortunately I still have issues with my health. Due to all of the chemotherapy and radiation I've had in the past, I now have side effects and constantly worry about future procedures I will have to have in the future. As well as always being terrified of relapsing. So as you can imagine being told that eventually not only do I have a 95% chance of having breast cancer and a secondary cancer, of course I freak out anytime I feel sick or have pain any where in my body! Especially these past few days of non stop stomach pains. They were so bad and almost reminded me of the feeling I had when I had a stomach tumor, so I asked to be taken to the ER. We were scared it might have been my gallstones or worse but thank goodness it wasn't. Unfortunately so far from what they can tell this ol body of mine has been through the windmill and has changed in all aspects of digestment issues. I cant eat a lot of things I used to and apparently I guess a lot of caffine can cause stomach cramps and I know im guilty when it comes to caffine sometimes, buuuuuuut ya know it happens. Im still in a lil pain but thank goodness its feeling better.

So on the other hand while I've been working on promoting and desighning for Chromatic L'Amour its been fun but kinda hard when stuff like that happens. I've also had issues with other health problemswhich I will get into later but because of my health issues it does EXTREMLY still cause a lot of set back in my work. Which brings me to ALOT of what ive been dealing with lately. As you loves have seen me say and post before, I don't like or agree with any type of bullying or degrading. And as you already know if people talk crap or smack I think its beyond lame and I always pretty much don't give a  flying rats BOOTY right. Well recently it came to my attention that its so offensive when someone says "Oh well your Cancer Free Right?" I don't know if its meant to sound different than the way that I think I hear it, or if people are just stupid and have no morals of manner and are rude. I say this not to be annoying but because if there is any Cancer patients/survivors that are reading this or even family of patients with Cancer or who have had cancer, im so sorry for people who you encounter that are rude and might have said things like this too you before. Just because we may be in remission or are cancer free doesn't mean we are free forever unfortunately. Some people never relapse or have any problems after treatment and its amazing, but not all of us are so lucky. No matter how much we would love to forget what happened to us and how cancer made us feel, scars may fade but will always be there physically and emotionally. One day you can be fine and by the next day your in some type of severe pain and you have to have tests and scans done just to make sure your ok. And if that's not stressful enough you have to worry about BILLS all the medical expenses that insurance didn't cover, or when you didn't have insurance or don't have insurance where do you turn to pay for hundreds and thousands of dollars. Its easy for people to say "Oh your Cancer Free right?" or "oh you'll be fine."

 

Some can work  if they can, and yeah I give EXTREME props to all the hard working people who are sick and still had or have to work through and after treatments because there's no other choice. I don't think that's fair, no one should have to work being that ill and its unfortunate. I now there's some people who don't have such severe treatments so they are able to work and that's awesome, I think that's great. But also what about people who cant, what about people who barely walk and feel extremely exhausted, who's body's are learning how to function again. Is it ok for them to go to work and pick up boxes and stand all day. No its not, or what about those who try to get work but are turned down because they are still in recovery regardless if they look normal, just because they had cancer people are scared to touch or hire them. Yes that could be discrimination but of course to some people they don't see that all they say is well "Your Cance free right?" or "You'll be fine." Just know your not alone, Its ok to take time to recover, its ok to be stressed when there's hard times especially when your in treatment. Sometimes its hard to even recover because there isn't enough time to because there we are trying to work to make ends meet. But if its one thing I've learned over these last weeks, doesn't matter if someone thinks your not doing enough or that you should or should not be working. Or even if they say dumb things that are not their business like,"oh your not married or you don't have kids?!" "You still can't walk a lot why?" "You should do this or you should do that." At the end of the day it doesn't mater at all what they say or think. Because you know how you feel and what you are doing and as long as your happy and getting by that's all that really matters. 

    

So I leave you with a sneaky lil bitty pic of some of the last few items I just piked up for the "comfort kits!!!" Im soooooooo excited and are hoping that I can finally finish to get them to the patients eighther this week or begaining of next!! Ive taken so much time putting as much thought and love into each and every one of them and its also thanks to you guys for all the donations you have donated by purchasing Chromatic L'Amour Clothing & Donating!! More pics to come!!! Keep updated on here or on my Insta Or Facebook!! All I can say is thank you to all my supporters you loves mean the world. There may be some people that say I should be working a real job, or that im not doing anything and im lazy. Or my personal fav "she's lying about what she does for a living." Ha!  Just watch, actions speak louder than words and my actions are well on the way of revealing themselves, so If Owning my own clothing line living my True dream while Spreading Cancer Awareness as well as making "Comfort Kits" for other cancer patients isn't a real job than what is. I know Iam doing something and I work extremely hard day in and day out Im blessed to have a roof over my head and food to eat even if there are hard time and struggles but at the end of the day all that matters is "IAM HAPPY!"